Mickey and Silvia
Author: Titti
E-mail: titti_adriano@h...
Ships: Spike and Angel
Rating: NC-17 for the series.
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Dedication: A big "thank you" to Vixen you was nice enough to beta for me even if it means staying up until unholy and vampiric hours.
Disclaimer: We all know that I don't own them, but we have to thank Joss, 20th Century Fox, Mutant Enemy, The WB and now UPN and who knows who else. Dirty Dancing and its sound track is not mine either and I have no clue who has the rights to that.
Spoilers: Season 5 BtVS/Season 2 Angel to be safe but it's mostly AU
Archives: Take it, spread it, just let me know where.

Part 3

DAY 4 – Afternoon

I am still in the bedroom too afraid to leave. We haven't spoken since yesterday. I avoided him like the plague all day. At night, I made sure to get to our cabin first and I locked myself in the bedroom.

Angelus must have slept on the couch. In my mind he is Angelus again, not soul boy. My mind knows that I am wrong, but my unbeating heart tells me otherwise.

I realize that if he were really Angelus he would just break the door down. He would force me to submit to him. My pain and humiliation would only make him happy. But he is not doing any of that so I guess Angel is still in control.

I am scared to face him. Not physically, I have put up with immense torture at his hand when I was just turned. Besides, Angel would never use that kind of force. No, I am afraid for my heart.

I was starting to think that there may be something new between me and Angel, something even better that what I had with Angelus. My illusions were shuttered once and I don't know if I can go through it for a second time.

There are noises in the other room. He starts knocking on the door. "Open this door, please." He is whispering the words knowing full well that I can hear him.

I can just picture him leaning on the other side of the door, head rested on the wooden divider, one fist raised to knock softly.

I can't stay here forever. I prepare myself mentally and I slowly open the door. He doesn't move and we are standing in front of each other, bodies almost touching.

He puts one hand on my lower back and pulls me closer. He caresses my face with his other one. I close my eyes at the cool touch and give into it.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to…" I look at him and I see tears. I must be a bigger nancy boy than he is because I am ready to forgive and forget. Getting possessive is part of our vampiric genetic make- up. He may not want to admit it but we can't change what we are. Of course, I won't share my thoughts with him just yet.

He rests his forehead on mine. I can feel his needless breath on my face and I start to breathe also. I feel a familiar, yet different warmth build in my body at the sight of sire's succulent lips so close to mine. He moves even closer and he kisses me.

It's not a passionate or sexual kiss. It's very chaste by any standard, but it causes an earth shuttering sensation in my body. I can feel my clit aching with want and juices start flow in my core. Nothing will happen though because I can't allow it. I need time.

He seems to know this because he steps back. He cups my face with his hands and I can see the tenderness in his face. He is trying to sooth me and it's working.

"You want to go somewhere, do something. We can't stay inside forever. I promise not to act like a total jerk." He forces a smile but his face betrays his uncertainty.

I lower my gaze and answer in a small voice: "I want to go dancing."

Now he looks confused. "I thought we went dancing already," he replies.

"No, I don't want to go dancing with those fossils you call guests. I want to go to Johnnie's with the kids."

He has refused to go there since I got invited to those `staff-only' parties. He wouldn't let me go alone either telling me how it was dangerous for me to be around men with the chip. Strangely, he always used the word `men', never `humans'

"Fine, we'll go tonight. Can't we get some air now?" My face must have lit up because he has this stupid grin in his face.

"OK, just let me put some clothes on." While I go back to the bedroom, I hear him muttering. "They better cover that body." I smile.

We go to the theater/dancing area/playing area. It's a huge room used for whatever is necessary. Johnnie is rehearsing the song that he will sing at the show.

She's like the wind through my tree
She rides the night next to me
She leads me through moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
She's taken my heart
But she doesn't know what she's done
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league

I lean on Angel and rest my head on his shoulder. I let out a sigh. I hope Angel feel the same toward me.

DAY 4 – Nighttime

"Are you ready?" Angel must have worn off the floor with all the pacing.

"Hold your horses. I had no idea that it takes so much time to get ready when you are a woman."

Of course, I would have been done about 2 hours ago if it weren't for the make up. I used to help Dru put her make up, so at least I have an idea of what's what. However, learning to put it on myself without the benefit of a reflection is proving more difficult than killing humans with the chip.

I take a needless breath and join Angel in the living room. "We can go now."

I hear my sire hiss. Please Gods, not another jealous scene. I don't think I can deal with Mr. Caveman so soon.

I slowly lift my eyes and look at him. Yes, yes, yes, oh gods, yes. His eyes are truly the windows to his soul. His cinnamon orbs are darkened by lust. But there is a lot more there. I can see love and tenderness. How long I have waited for this expression!

"Spike, you look beautiful." He hesitates a little while he approaches me. "I…" He never finishes this sentence because I kiss him lightly on his lips. The grin that appears on his face could lighten up an entire city. I smile back.

"Maybe we should go. I know you are looking forward to tonight." He takes both my hands and looks straight into my eyes. "If we don't go now, I don't think that I can keep my hands off of you."

He turns around and drags me outside. I light a cigarette that I stole and I giggle. I am not a patient man, or woman as the case may be. However, Angel's renewed love for me makes all my sexual frustration melt away. If I have his soul, my body can wait.

We can hear the music blasting from the cabin long before we arrive. I try to get Angel to dance with me but he seems content to look at me. Remembering his jealous streak I start dancing very innocently at first. When I see that he is relaxed I forget everything and let the music take control of my body.

You broke my heart
'Cause I couldn't dance
You didn't even want me around
And now I'm back, to let you know
I can really shake 'em down
Do you love me?
Do you love me?
Ah do you love?
Now that I can dance
Watch me now, oh I get close to him and start moving my body around him. He is leaning on a table. He doesn't move, he just stays there and looks at me. Even when I grab his neck and start nibbling at his jugular, he stands still. However, I can see other parts of his body growing.

We play this teasing game for a while. He is still smiling so I guess I haven't overdone it. By the end of the night we are all tired and the music starts slowing down. That's when my sire gets up and pulls me close to him.

The night we met I knew I needed you so
And if I had the chance I'd never let you go
So won't you say you love me
I'll make you so proud of me
We'll make 'em turn their heads
Every place we go
So won't you please
Be my little baby

"Spike…it's true I have need you since I laid my eyes on you. I am sorry I had to leave you. I just… I guess I wanted to tell you that it wouldn't happen anymore. I wouldn't leave you unless you asked me to."

I can't even fight the tears. I am so happy that if I would cease to exist at this moment I wouldn't care.

I'll make you happy, baby
Just wait and see
For every kiss you give me
I'll give you three
Oh, since the day I saw you
I have been waiting for you
You know I will adore you
Till eternity

"You don't have to say anything. I know I haven't been there for you as I should have. But Spike, please know that I truly will love you for eternity."

I kiss him. I let me tongue slip into his mouth and I can taste all that it's Angel, my sire. I get lost in the kiss feeling safe in his arms. The music ends and there is nothing left for us to do but go back to the cabin.

I am starting to like this courting business.

TBC.