Updated PartTitle: Owning my mistakes 1/18
Author: Spikewil
Feedback: spikewil@w...
Pairing: Spike/Gunn
Summary: Spike gets raped, ends up pregnant and need to trust the father again.
Warning: rape
Spoilers: Season 5, episode Destiny.
A/N 1: I adopted this plot bunny from Asdomina: Knock Spike up by somebody who isn't Angel. I know not really a challenge but there aren't enough out there.
A/N 2: Angel season 5. I took the scene where Harmony and Spike get it on and twisted it. Also I changed the possession part about the scene.
A/N 3: Gunn never turned into a lawyer, but stayed a demon hunter.Many thanks to my lovely beta Spiked_by_James. Thanks, sweetie!
***Day 1***
"You've got mail," Harmony said, holding up a package to Spike.
"What?" Spike asked surprised.
"It's addressed to you, care of here," Harmony answered.
"Who the hell'd be sending post to a...," Spike grumbled.
"Ghost? Doesn't say. Kind of heavy. Here," Harmony answered and gave Spike the package.
Spike held up his incorporeal hands, gesturing for Harmony to open it.
"Oh. You want me to...," Harmony responded.
"If you don't mind," Spike said, frustrated at not being able to do the simplest things.
Harmony took a letter opener and sliced through the package tape. Upon opening, a flash of bright white light was released from the package. Harmony blinked dramatically, then looked at Spike.
"Well, that was a slap and a tickle," Spike sarcastically said.
"There's nothing...," Harmony said, peering into the package, but was interrupted by the telephone ringing.
"Any more fireworks for me, I'll be in here telling your boss what a miserable bastard...," Spike said while walking towards Angel's office. Instead of walking through it as usual, he bumped against the door hard, which left him sprawled on the floor. Gobsmacked, he looked up at Angel, who had opened his office door to check what had thumped loudly against it. Realization suddenly dawned upon him. "Hold on...," Spike stood up and started touching Angel's chest. "Hey, I can feel," Spike stated excitedly.
"Hey. Stop touching me," Angel said, pushing Spike's hands away from his body.
It was then that Spike became aware of another familiar sensation. He licked his upper lip only to discover his nose had bled a bit from his run-in with the door. "Mmm! I can...," Spike mumbled and grabbed the mug from Angel's hand, gobbling down the blood it contained.
"Hey!" Angel exclaimed, getting angrier every passing minute. His Grandchilde was back to his old self and would soon be able to make his unlife a living hell again.
"Mmm! Mmm! Mmm! Oh god, it's bloody ambrosia. Is this otter?" Spike said while looking into the mug and giving it back to Angel.
Meanwhile, Gunn had heard the commotion and walked towards the vampires. He could see the beautiful blond vampire drinking blood from Angel's favourite mug. "Hey, what's going..."
"I'm back, Charlie boy! That's what's going on!" Spike answered happily and hugged the other man enthusiastically. That was when he was greeted by another sensation he had missed in his incorporeal state. A great wave of pheromones poured off the hunter, betraying Gunn's arousal in his presence. Spike was shocked and aroused at this unexpected revelation. He had never noticed the hunter was attracted to men before.
"Really? Excuse me, Angel. I have to borrow your Grandchilde for a few hours," Gunn told the older vampire. He took Spike's hand and dragged the unresisting vampire with him through the halls of the firm.
"This office empty? Good!" Gunn didn't wait for an answer and just pushed the employee out of one of the offices and locked the door. He then turned around and leered at the cocky vampire. "Undress!" he ordered.
"Bloody hell NO!" Spike replied, angry at being ordered around like a fledgling. He wasn't Angelus' butt boy anymore, he was a Master vampire now. Like hell was this man going to put him in that position again!
Gunn sneered, grabbed Spike and whirled the vampire around, pressing him against the wall. Spike struggled and found out that the young black human was strangely stronger than himself.
"LET ME GO!" Spike ordered, surprised at the young man's strength.
"NO! We will have you," Gunn said in a misformed voice.
Spike knew immediately that this couldn't be Gunn. "NO!" Spike screamed when the man pulled his duster off and ripped away his jeans and shirt, leaving the vampire naked. Spike tried to kick the creature that was using Gunn's body but it had placed a spell on Spike, which made him stand paralyzed and legs spread wide against the wall.
Spike tried to see if his voice still worked. "Who are you?" he demanded to know.
"We're the Ancient," it said before slamming Gunn's large hard cock inside Spike's unprepared hole.
Spike howled out his pain, as he was taken dry. He kept trying to move away from the pain, but his body remained frozen. He cried and pleaded for help, hoping someone would hear him as the Ancient continued pounding into him, tearing and hurting his body and his soul.
*****
Angel was still in shock. Gunn had taken his Grandchilde with him. Although he knew the hunter loved Spike, Gunn had been successful in hiding his feelings towards Spike so far. The rest of their team had no idea about his infatuation but pheromones were hard to cover up. Angel and Harmony had smelled them on numerous occasions, whenever Spike was around. However, Spike's ghostly state made him unable to sense these things. He wondered how Spike was dealing with this revelation.
Harmony and Angel frowned when they heard Spike howling. Instead of Spike's howling of pleasure they both knew so well, they recognized it as a scream of pain. They ran towards the sound and found themselves in front of an office. Both vamps could hear Spike's pleading and broke down the door.
Harmony froze at the sight of Gunn raping Spike, but Angel stormed forward and pulled Gunn off the crying vampire. He hurled the man across the room, knocking him out when the man hit his head on the desk. At that precise moment, the paralyzing spell was broken and Spike slumped down the wall onto the floor, wincing in pain.
Both Harmony and Angel ran towards Spike, who was curling himself into a small ball. Harmony tried to touch her ex lover but the blond vamp shrunk away, not willing to allow any physical contact.
Fred had followed Angel and Harmony when she saw them running hurriedly across the halls, calling for Spike. She watched how Harmony and Angel carried an unconscious Gunn into the lab and heard Angel ordering to put him in the special aisle where the other possessed employees were laying restraint.
She approached Spike carefully and could see he was bleeding. Considering the type of his injuries, his nakedness and his current refusal to be touched, it didn't take long for Fred to come to the conclusion that the handsome vampire had been raped. Shocked at the thought that her friend Charles seemed to have been responsible for this horrible incident, Fred kneeled next to Spike.
"Spike, let Angel take care of you. You need his help." Fred said in a soothing voice, trying to reassure the shaken vampire. No reaction from Spike prompted Fred to continue. "I bet you want to get clean. I can tell him you want to take a bath," she suggested.
Assured that Gunn would be properly restrained and taken care of, Angel went back to the office where he had found Spike. He was entering the office when he heard Fred's words. He saw Spike open his eyes, searching the room for the older vampire until they locked eyes. Spike silently pleaded for Angel to take him away from this room.
Angel looked at his Grandchilde, he had never seen him so vulnerable. He stepped towards Spike and picked him up. Fred stepped back and watched Angel carrying the still naked younger vampire to his bedroom. She picked Spike's prized duster off the floor and placed it quickly on the naked vampire before Angel left the office.
Angel carried Spike to his bedroom, placed him on the large double bed and walked into the bathroom where he prepared a hot bath. When he walked back into his bedroom, he saw his once proud Grandchilde shivering on the bed and staring at the door.
"Angel, is the Ancient gone?" Spike asked in a shaky voice.
"Don't worry about him, Gunn is lying restraint in the lab," Angel answered softly. "Spike? I've prepared a bath for you," Angel said, walking towards Spike. He gently guided the shaken vampire into the bathroom and showed him that no one else was in the room.
"You can leave now," Spike said; he wanted to be left alone. He felt dirty and ashamed, he didn't want his Grandsire to see how badly hurt he really was.
Angel was very suspicious when Spike told him to leave, but he nodded and decided to give Spike his privacy. "I will check on Gunn. I'll lock the bedroom door so no one but me can come in," Angel said before leaving Spike alone in the bathroom.
Spike closed the bathroom door and sank into the hot water, wincing at the pain radiating from his violated anus. He took the washcloth, soaped it and scrubbed his body firmly.
*****
Angel stepped into the lab and watched how Gunn's eyes had turned red. Apparently, Gunn had been possessed by some sort of demon. It was sneering at Fred and Angel, taunting them. "I was finished before you knocked this human body out," it said triumphantly.
Angel ignored the demon's provocative tone and he took the young scientist to a discreet area of the lab, a small-soundproofed room where they could observe patients without being seen. "Fred, what do you know about this demon?" Angel asked curiously.
"Well, we've found out that we're witnessing an unusual case of animal possession. Floraks use demons and humans in order to get pleasure. Unfortunately, they also make their victims fertile. In most cases, their victims end up having to deal with an unwanted pregnancy," Fred explained what she had found out so far.
"So it's possible that Gunn has made Spike pregnant?" Angel questioned.
Fred nodded.
"Oh god!" Angel exclaimed, before running back to his bedroom.
****
Although Spike had been scrubbing his body until his skin was red and raw, the worst was yet to come. He kneeled down in the tub and tried to reach behind him. But the soreness of his muscles made it difficult to reach his anus. He cried out frustrated.
Angel had hurried back to his room after Fred's unexpected revelation and heard Spike's groans of pain. Afraid that the vampire was being hurt again, he broke down the door. "Spike?" Angel shouted, barging into the bathroom.
Angel was shocked by his Grandchilde's body; the skin was red and raw. Spike's position and the tears rolling down his sharp cheekbones told Angel all he needed to know. The older vampire kneeled next to the tub and took the cloth from Spike's hand and cleaned the anus quickly but thoroughly.
"You're clean!" Angel announced, before picking up the younger vamp without a warning. He dried his Grandchilde and carried him into the bedroom. He dressed the shivering vamp in pajamas and gently placed him under the sheets. Spike curled up immediately.
"Don't leave!" Spike cried out when he felt Angel about to stand, afraid his Grandsire would leave.
Angel sighed. His demon was screaming at him. It wanted to kill Gunn, but he knew he couldn't blame the hunter for the demonic possession. He phoned Harmony and ordered four pints of blood. "Let Gunn bring them," he said when Harmony informed him that Fred had smashed a red ruby and the Ancient had been successfully eliminated. All his victims were back to normal.
*****
Gunn was surprised to hear from Harmony that Angel had asked him to bring the blood for the young vampire. He hadn't thought Angel would let him near Spike ever again. Though he had been awake during the entire rape, he hadn't been able to control his body and stop the demon from ruining the budding friendship he had with Spike.
Angel saw Gunn hesitating at the entrance and he beckoned the man inside. The black young man handed the blood to Angel, averting his eyes. He kneeled in front of the bed and stared at the broken vampire. Paler than usual, full of red spots of raw skin where Spike had scrubbed his scent away, curled up in a fetal position, Spike was still a beautiful man to behold. Gunn wanted to hold the vampire in his arms and comfort him but he knew that he had no right to do that.
Angel looked at Gunn, clearly in pain for what had happened. He was also aware that Spike was awake since the hunter had entered the room. He was feigning to sleep. Angel decided to take the chance and try to mend things between the two men.
"The demon used you, Gunn. He raped you too in a sense," Angel started.
Gunn could no longer hold in his tears. "I know it used me, Angel, but it acted on my crush on Spike. I love him, you know I do. But after this, how is he ever going to trust me again? Gunn cried softly. He reached out to touch Spike's face but stopped and pulled back.
"Gunn, why don't you go to your room and try to get some sleep," Angel instructed, pleased that Gunn had admitted his feelings without having to prompt any further. "You'll have to work this out together. I need to tell you both something, but it can wait until the morning," Angel stated, knowing the morning would come in a few hours. A few more hours wouldn't harm Spike.
Spike opened his eyes as soon as Gunn left Angel's apartment. He looked at his Grandsire, confused about the conversation he had been listening to. "If he loved me, how could he do this to me?"
"It wasn't Gunn, Spike. He wasn't in control of his body, remember? If he were, he wouldn't have raped you," Angel answered the best he could.
"This is payback from Buffy, isn't it? Buffy did this! I hurt her and now she used something to hurt me. But I stopped!" Spike mumbled to himself.
Angel heard every word of it and recalled the phone call from Xander more than a year ago. Xander had told him that Spike had raped Buffy. He had roared in anger at his Grandchilde's actions. But then he remembered Xander had always been jealous of his and Spike's presence around Buffy.
So he had called Buffy and she explained the incident in her own words. He was shocked to learn how Buffy had used his Grandchilde to deal with her pain for being brought back from Heaven. He didn't tell her that he didn't blame Spike for what he had done. Spike's actions were the typical vampire way to make someone he loves admit that she loves him as well. Plus, Spike had stopped in time.
Spike fell asleep, still curled under the blanket. Angel decided it was best to watch Spike just in case the vampire felt distressed or self-destructive. He made himself comfortable on the other side of the bed and fell asleep.
*****
Spike was trapped in his nightmare. He was raping Buffy again, he heard her voice, telling him to stop, but he couldn't. He had to show her that she loved him. Only Buffy turned tables, he was pushed against the bathroom wall with force. His pants were ripped off, leaving him naked. He tried to struggle but he couldn't move. "Please, let me go!" he begged.
"Why? You're the one who wanted this. So why do you want to stop now?" Buffy sneered.
Spike felt her pushing her fist inside him. All of a sudden, Buffy turned into Gunn. He started screaming.
Angel woke up startled by something that had hit him on the chest. When he opened his eyes, he could see Spike's arms flailing in the air. He sat up immediately and held Spike against him. Angel couldn't do anything but whisper soothing words in Spike's ear while purring.
Spike heard the familiar purr and he followed the sound in his dream until it got louder and recognized the words being whispered in his ear. "Angel?"
"Yes, Spike. It's me. You were having a bad dream," Angel whispered.
"Gunn hurt me!" Spike stated softly.
"No, he didn't. The Ancient hurt you using Gunn's body. Gunn is a victim, just like you," Angel explained.
"He got hurt too?" Spike asked.
"I knocked him out. He had a gash on his head," Angel responded.
"You hurt Gunn? I like him," Spike suddenly mentioned.
Angel chuckled. "You were hurt and you've just had a nightmare. And now you're telling me you like him?" Angel asked stunned.
"It wasn't him, you said so yourself. I know I have to learn to trust him again, but I like him," Spike whined.
"You're a special vamp, Spike. Well, if you really like him, you won't mind knowing that Gunn is coming in about an hour. There's something we need to talk about," Angel said, preparing Spike for a meeting with Gunn.
"He's coming? Really?" Spike asked, strangely enthusiastic.
"Spike, what's wrong? Why are you acting like this after being raped?" Angel asked angrily, not understanding Spike's attitude.
"I know it's strange. It's like peace came over me. I'm all calm and I want Gunn to be here," Spike answered, closing his eyes again.
Angel looked at his Grandchilde and sighed deeply. This might have something to do with the possible pregnancy. He would just have to ask Lorak, his doctor. He had already called the man when Spike was hurt and cleaning himself. The man hadn't been able to come sooner, because of his other patients.
He stood up, disentangled himself from Spike and walked to the table in the living room. He picked up the phone to call Gunn. It was time to meet.