Title: Owning my mistakes 2a/18
Author: Spikewil
Feedback: spikewil@w...
Pairing: Spike/Gunn
Summary: Spike gets raped, ends up pregnant and needs to trust the father again.
Warning: mentions of the rape
Spoilers: Season 5, episode Destiny.
A/N 1: I adopted this plot bunny from Asdomina: Knock Spike up by somebody who isn't Angel. I know not really a challenge but there aren't enough out there.
A/N 2: Angel season 5. I took the scene where Harmony and Spike get it on. I twisted it.
A/N 3: Cordelia never went evil and still lives, Connor doesnıt exist and Gunn never turned into a lawyer.Betaıd by: my lovely and precious Spiked_by_James.
***Day 2***
³Spike, I have to leave for a few moments. I will be back after that, okay?² Angel told the dozy vampire.
³Okay, will you take long? Will you bring Gunn?² Spike asked curiously.
³I will send Gunn this way and then I will come back with the doctor,² Angel answered and left the room.
On his way to Lorak, he ran into Gunn. The young man was nervously pacing around the lobby, waiting for Angel to appear.
³Can I see him? Is he okay?² Gunn asked curiously.
³Yes, you can see him. He knows youıre coming,² Angel answered and watched how Gunn ran towards his place. Angel frowned, something strange was happening. The older vampire walked to the infirmary to get Lorak, deep in thought.
*****
Gunn knocked on the door and it was opened before he was done knocking. ³Hey,² Gunn greeted softly when he spotted Spike in the doorway, still dressed in Angelıs black silk pyjamas.
³Hey, come in,² Spike said and let Gunn enter Angelıs apartment.
³How have you slept?² Gunn asked softly.
³Well enough, considering the things that happened,² Spike said, fidgeting.
³No nightmares?² Gunn asked curiously. He had been plagued by nightmares until he decided to leave his apartment. Wandering through the halls, he had ended up sitting near Angelıs door, trying to eavesdrop on Angel and Spike. ³Because I had.²
³Yeah, I had a nightmare, but Angel made it go away,² Spike answered carefully. He didnıt know how Gunn would react to Angelıs renewed care for this Grandchilde. It had been so long since Spike had been the object of such care, he didnıt want to lose it again.
³Spike, may I see?² Gunn whispered, pointing awkwardly at Spikeıs chest.
Spike stood still and hesitated before taking off his pyjama jacket. Gunn gasped at the sight of the bruises. He slowly made his way to Spike who was looking at his feet. He reached out and gently touched the places where he had hurt the vampire. ³Iım sorry for hurting you,² Gunn cried out softly, still finding it hard to accept that he had hurt his friend and once secret crush.
Spike looked up, surprised to see Gunn crying again. The young man kept surprising him, he had never expected to see this sensitive side to the strong demon hunter before. He stepped backwards; he didnıt want to feel Gunnıs hands on his bruises anymore. It made him feel scared. ³Iıll be right back,² he said before walking towards the bathroom. He wanted to close the door but noticed only then that Angel had broken it last night.
Gunn sat in the living room waiting for Spike to come back. He was facing away from the bedroom so he could give Spike some privacy.
*****
In the bathroom, Spike had undressed himself completely and was staring down at the bruises on his body. Spike was unable to conceal a sob at the remembrance of how they had been made and before he knew it Gunn was holding him.
³Iım sorry!² Gunn repeated the words over and over again, holding the naked vampire tightly in his arms. He had heard the sob and couldnıt stop himself from walking into the bathroom and taking the vamp in his arms to comfort him.
³It bloody hurts!² Spike cried, tears falling down his cheeks, soaking Gunnıs shirt.
³We will deal with this. We wonıt let the Ancient win,² Gunn stated, sounding confident of himself.
Spike nodded and wiped away his tears. ³They bloody wonıt win!² he announced d in his cocky voice although he didnıt feel cocky.
³Letıs get you cleaned and dressed before Angel comes back,² Gunn suggested and stepped back. He wanted to help Spike but the vampire was nervous whenever Gunn touched him on certain places.
*****
Angel and Lorak entered Angelıs apartment and spotted Spike and Gunn sitting closely on the couch and talking. The older vampire looked at his Grandchilde and knew immediately he had been crying by the teartracks of Spikeıs cheeks. He also noticed Gunn was holding one of Spikeıs hands.
³Hello Spike, Gunn. My name is Lorak,² the doctor introduced himself. ³How are you feeling, Spike?²
³Mıfine!² Spike answered shyly, not looking at Gunn who couldnıt stop smiling. The man was pleased to be able to touch the vampire, without making Spike all tense and nervous.
³I need to tell you something about the Ancient!² Angel said bluntly. Not knowing how else to begin, he had decided that being direct was the best solution.
³What?² Spike asked scared, not liking the way his Grandsire was acting.
³Wesley and Fred have been researching the Ancient and previous cases of possessions. Apparently, to be able to possess its victims, either people or demons, it has to make their bodies fertile,² Angel started.
Silence.
Spike and Gunn sat on the couch, not knowing what to say. All of a sudden, Gunn realized that Angelıs explanation could only mean one thing.
³Spike could be pregnant?² Gunn asked Angel. He was shocked; males couldnıt get pregnant. Right?
³But how? Iım a male vampire. How would the baby develop or eat?² Spike asked, as much shocked as Gunn. If possible, he could have a baby. Gunnıs baby! Spike looked at Gunn and realized that it was possible they were going to be daddies. Strangely, he was actually getting more and more excited at the thought of having a child rather than being afraid.
Gunn didnıt know what to think, the only thing that sprang to his mind was that he wanted to take care of Spike and their baby.
³How can you tell for sure if Spikeıs pregnant?² Gunn asked curiously.
Spike looked at Gunn and saw that the man wasnıt disgusted with him. ³Iım not dirty?² Spike asked in a small voice.
Both Gunn and Angel were surprised at this question. ³No, youıre not! Youıre beautiful and weıre going to be daddies,² Gunn answered back, trying to reassure the young vampire who had tensed up again at his own question.
³If Iım pregnant, will you help me?² Spike asked shyly albeit more relaxed. It was still hard to believe Gunn had said he was beautiful. He couldnıt even let the man touch him in certain places without tensing up again.
³Yes, I will. Whatever happens, I want to help you,² Gunn answered in a steady voice, trying not to betray his deep feelings and concern for the vampire. He didnıt want to frighten Spike, but he wanted to do more than just help.
***Two hours later, Angelıs office***
Lorne had arrived to read Gunn and Spikeıs auras in case The PTB had something to do with it. He was currently sitting on Angelıs desk, observing the new couple while daydreaming about undressing Angelıs shirt and caressing his broad naked chest. It was a good thing he was able to mask his own scent, being near Angel whenever he was licking his dry lips with the tip of his tongue always made him hard. The vampire was clearly worried about Spikeıs welfare.
Gunn and Spike were waiting for the doctor to start his examination. Spike was nervous, he had thrown up an hour ago and his nipples were getting sensitive to the touch. His instincts told him his body was already changing to accommodate a baby. Nevertheless, Spike looked cockily at the doctor. ³So, doc, am I bloody pregnant?²
³Why donıt you lie down on Angelıs couch and let me see?² Lorak replied sharply.
Spike backed off at the sharpness in the doctorıs voice immediately. Gunn placed a hand on Spikeıs shoulder for comfort. He needed to touch Spike just to make sure he was still there.
Lorak chanted a few words and within seconds everyone saw a green dot on Spikeıs belly. ³Yes, Spike. Youıre pregnant. But this wonıt be a normal pregnancy,² Lorak said fascinated. ³See how big the dot already is? In human terms youıre 4 weeks pregnant instead of two days,² Lorak continued, not seeing the shocked looks he received at the news. ³That means one day is two weeks. A pregnancy is 36 weeks, which means your pregnancy is going to be 18 days. You have to hurry up preparing the baby room,² Lorak tried to joke, but his smile vanished when he saw the shocked looks on their faces.
³My lover is having a baby in 18 days?² Gunn asked stunned, not seeing the dreamy look on Spikeıs face at the word lover.
³Yes, thatıs correct,² Lorak answered.
³Is the baby human or a vampire?² Angel asked curiously.
³I can only see that on the 6th day,² Lorak replied.
³Whereıs it going to come out?² Spike demanded sharply and blanched when Lorak looked below his waist. ³But thatıs going to bloody hurt!² Spike whined.
Gunn held one of Spikeıs hands between his, caressing it softly. The vampire had straightened up after the spell wore off and seemed to be in need of some support. Spike looked at Gunn, as if asking for permission, and leaned against his chest. Glad to see Spike more comfortable around him, Gunn put his arm around the vampire and held him closely
³Bugger! Iım going to be a mommy! I wanted to be a daddy!² Spike whined, having already accepted that he and Gunn were going to become parents.
³Who said you have to be a mommy? I could be a mommy too, you know? Just because youıre pregnant doesnıt mean² Gunn suggested, trying to comfort the distressed vampire. However, his voice trailed off the moment he saw Spike was smirking. He had been fooled by the manipulative blonde.
³Good, then Iım the daddy!² Spike announced smiling. His smile quickly turned into loud giggles as Gunn tickled his sides as payback for his little performance.
Gunn stopped tickling when Spike suddenly stood up and ran towards the dustbin that was standing under Angelıs desk. He heard the sound of vomiting and stood up to comfort his lover. Gunn gave him his handkerchief to clean his mouth and called Harmony to bring Spike a glass of fresh water.
Spike sighed and hoped this part of the pregnancy would soon be over. ³Wait a minute...18 DAYS! Did you really say 18 days?² Spike suddenly cried out when that part of the doctorıs speech finally sank in.
³Yes,² Lorak answered calmly. He had been waiting for Spike to notice that part of his explanation.
³Gunn, we only have 18 bloody days to prepare the baby room, we need to buy stuff and clothes and and² Spike ranted.
³Calm down, Spike. We need to do a lot of things. But Iım sure the doctor can tell us what needs to be done, perhaps giving us a list,² Gunn said calmly, while inside he wasnıt feeling calm at all. In fact, he was feeling so overwhelmed by the revelations that Gunn needed something to ground him. He needed Spike. Before the vampire could walk away, Gunn was kissing him tenderly. A kiss that hadnıt happened before or after the rape.
Although he had been caught off guard, Spike kissed back and couldnıt stop himself from moaning. In spite of knowing that this was the man who had raped him, Spike didnıt think about the Ancientıs attack that had kept him awake all night after his nightmare. Gunnıs touch was like a balm; he wanted to be touched by the man and he felt his cock stir.
Before the kiss could deepen, they heard someone clear their throats. They ended the kiss and turned to see Lorak and Lorne watching them with smiles on their faces. Angel, however, looked like he was brooding.
³Stop brooding, Peaches!² Spike said to his Grandsire.
Angel smiled at the exclamation. ³Contrary to popular belief, Iım not brooding, Spike. Lorak, this morning Spike told me that although he was hurt he felt calm and peaceful. Does that have something to do with the pregnancy?²
³It could be, but we need to know more about this baby, if you want me to answer that,² Lorak answered.
Angel accepted that answer and watched the couple, still embraced and looking into each otherıs eyes. He knew Spike wouldnıt want the baby to grow up in the demonic firm, so he was planning to help his Grandchilde by finding a suitable apartment nearby.
³Gunn, we have to find a place to stay. I donıt want my baby to grow up here,² Spike stated.
Angel looked surprised when Spike voiced his thoughts. He saw Gunn nodding his agreement behind him. The taller man had placed Spike in front of him and his arms circled Spikeıs waist. Judging from the way Gunn was holding him, Spike would be fine. It was even possible that he had finally found someone willing to appease his lifelong hunger for love. Spike had always been a special vamp, his lust for love had always been greater than his lust for blood and violence. Angelus had tried to beat that human trait away from the fledgling but had never succeeded.
³Pumpkins? I need you two to hum a few lines so I can read you, okay?² Lorne asked.
Gunn didnıt answer but started humming a song, Everything I doı from Bryan Adams. The empathy demon smiled at the choice of song as well as their future.
Spike followed Gunnıs humming and chose the song My wayı from Frank Sinatra.
Again Lorne smiled. ³Youıre going to be fine. The PTB had nothing to do with this, but they do encourage you two to stay together. You are both very special,² Lorne told them.
³How special?² Gunn asked curiously.
³They havenıt given me that answer yet,² Lorne answered carefully, knowing the boys would have to know the full truth some day. It was too soon for a full disclosure, though.
³Spike, Gunn, why donıt you two take my apartment for awhile to talk about things,² Angel suggested. Lorak had already left the room to attend his other patients.
Angel turned and stared at Lorne. He was in love with the empathy demon but so far he had been too damn shy to do anything about it.
³Angelcakes? Do you need me for anything else?² Lorne asked.
Angel was daydreaming about kissing Lorne when he heard Lorneıs question. He turned bright red. ³Uhmyeah. But the thing I need, is in your room,² Angel answered softly.
³Okay, are you coming with me then?² Lorne questioned. He saw Angel blushing and was very curious to know what the vampire wanted from his room.
*****
Lorne invited the suddenly shy vampire inside. Intrigued by his unusual behaviour, he sniffed Angelıs scent, trying to get an idea of what was troubling him. Nobody knew he could smell some things just like vampires if he wanted to. He usually didnıt use that skill and nobody had ever asked. A pheromone wall of arousal hit him fast and he felt his cock stir. Angel wanted him too?
Angelıs initial plan had been to turn around and kiss the green demon before he did or said anything awkward that would make him lose his nerve. Unfortunately, his plan failed when Lorne took him in his arms and kissed him deeply. So deeply he forgot his own name.
³How long have you been wanting me?² Lorne asked seductively, breaking up the kiss that had left Angel panting for unneeded breath.
³Mm? Umabout a year. Since Willow restored and bound my soul without the curse. How did you know,² Angel gasped out, getting aroused by the two hands, which were cupping his ass and pulling him against the demonıs groin.
³I can smell pheromones just like you can.² Lorne said smiling. ³Are you sure about the curse, Angel? Because I want you too,² Lorne whispered, swiping his tongue across Angelıs jugular before nipping it gently. He grinned when he noticed Angelıs legs were no longer able to support him and the vampire was now leaning heavily on Lorneıs shoulders.
³We should wait, Angel!² Lorne said breathlessly, when Angel started undressing him.
³No! Donıt want to wait. Want you now!² Angel demanded desperately.
Lorne guided Angel towards his couch and laid the vampire on it. He quickly divested Angel from his clothes, leaving the naked, blushing and horny vampire fully exposed.
Angel gasped at Lorneıs touch while he was being undressed and he shivered at the sight of Lorne, hungrily staring at him and licking his lips. The vampire stared back at Lorne, curious about the demonıs body, usually concealed by his flashy clothes. He was pleasantly surprised by the demonıs muscled body and the brown spots on his abdomen that were a sign of arousal among his species until Lorneıs cock caught his attention. It was huge.
Lorne was aroused and his cock jumped against his stomach. He stroked it gently before walking towards Angel. He took the feet in his hands and pushed the legs against Angelıs chest before diving down to lick Angelıs entrance.
³Aaaahhh!² Angel groaned loudly when Lorne pushed his tongue inside his ass. His hands on Lorneıs head pushing him further against his ass cheeks.
Lorne moaned as well, pushing in and out of the tight hole repeatedly. Angelıs hole was squeezing his tongue and it felt like Angel was still a virgin when it came to being taken by a man.
³Angel, have you ever done this before?² Lorne asked after pulling his tongue out of Angelıs delicious body.
Angel needed some time to be able to answer the question. ³No. Why? Is that going to be a problem?² Angel panicked.
³No, thatıs not a problem. But that means I wonıt enter you tonight. I want to make your first time very special!² Lorne stated. ³Until then, I will do things like this²
Before Angel could object, he felt his cock engulfed by a wet heat. Lorne started sucking Angelıs cock head and massaging his balls. The sucking became faster and harder and Angel arched his back. His orgasm slammed through him and he howled a primal scream. The moment Lorne tasted Angelıs semen, he came in his pants without a single touch.