Title: Owning my mistakes 2b/18
Author: Spikewil
Feedback: spikewil@w...
Pairing: Spike/Gunn
Summary: Spike gets raped, ends up pregnant and needs to trust the father again.
Warning: mentions of the rape
Spoilers: Season 5, episode Destiny.
A/N 1: I adopted this plot bunny from Asdomina: Knock Spike up by somebody who isn't Angel. I know not really a challenge but there aren't enough out there.
A/N 2: Angel season 5. I took the scene where Harmony and Spike get it on. I twisted it.
A/N 3: Cordelia never went evil and still lives, Connor doesnıt exist and Gunn never turned into a lawyer.Betaıd by: my lovely and precious Spiked_by_James. ***Angelıs office***
Gunn and Spike heard Angelıs howl reverberating throughout the entire firm and couldnıt help but smile even though Spike had no idea why Angel would do such a thing.
³Finally! Itıs about time that silly vampire stopped brooding and found the guts to tell Lorne he wanted him!² Gunn exclaimed.
³Angel wanted Lorne?² Spike asked surprised and saw Gunn nodding his head enthusiastically.
The couple was sitting in Angelıs office discussing the doctorıs list. They needed so many things, they were planning to invite Fred and Cordy to help them shopping. Therefore they were now surfing the Internet to look for a shop that would be open until late hours nearby.
**Later that afternoon**
³Gunn, I have found an apartment nearby, do you and Spike want to have a look?² Angel suggested, walking in his office and giving the young man the address.
³Okay, I will ask Spike if heıs up for it. Does it have a sewer entrance?² the hunter spoke softly, careful not to wake up Spike. The blond vampire had fallen asleep on Angelıs couch.
³How do you think I got there?² Angel chuckled.
Gunn nodded his head and sat next to Spike watching him sleep. He smiled when he saw the eyes fluttering open.
Spike felt someone watching him and woke up. He could never sleep when a person was watching him.
³Hey, luv,² Spike mumbled, still waking up.
Gunn grinned. Spike looked like a little boy when he woke up, his fists rubbing his eyes and yawning at the same time. He couldnıt stop himself and gave Spike a peck on the lips and nose before standing up.
³Angel found us an apartment. Do you want to check it out?² Gunn asked and extended his hand for Spike to take.
³Okay, but is there a sewer entrance? Itıs still daylight,² Spike asked curious. He had never thought they would find an apartment this quick.
³Yeah, there is,² Angel answered instead. He hadnıt left his office and was watching the couple.
³So, whatıs with the howling, Angel?² Spike joked.
³YYouILorneuhm,² Angel stuttered, not knowing what to say. He couldnıt believe everybody had heard his howling. If he were human, he would have blushed red.
³Wow, he did you good!² Gunn exclaimed when the older vampire didnıt know what to say.
³Baby, are you okay?² Lorne asked, when he stepped into his loverıs office and saw him licking his upper lip again.
³Yes, he was trying to come up with a food excuse for his howling! Couldnıt think of one though,² Spike said, giggling when his Grandsire did manage to blush.
³Ah, my babyıs howling. You better get used to it, guys. He will be screaming and howling even louder next time I touch his body,² Lorne answered with an evil smile on his face.
³Spike, Gunn, please go!² Angel begged, no longer able to look them in the eyes. He had never felt this embarrassed before.
³Okay, letıs go then! What are we waiting for?² Spike announced, standing up, taking his duster and waiting for Gunn to catch up.
Gunn laughed, his boyfriend was very eager to see the apartment. ³Letıs go then, sweet heart,² Gunn said, walking out of the office trusting Spike to follow him.
The vampire followed Gunn dreamily, with a smile on his face. Gunn had called him sweetheart. Nobody had ever called him that. The hunter placed his arm around Spikeıs shoulder and both entered the sewer, following Angelıs instructions to the place.
*****
Spike was looking into every room while Gunn was already thinking where to place several pieces of furniture. This would be their home.
³Gunn, this house is perfect. It has plenty of room for the kid and there will be room for a small office,² Spike told the hunter.
³I was thinking, we could have separate rooms until youıre ready to share?² Gunn suggested.
³I donıt want that. I want to share a room with you. I need to feel safe and you do that already by just suggesting that,² Spike replied, dismissing Gunnıs idea.
³You do? I can wait, Spike,² Gunn offered again, just to make sure Spike was certain of his choice.
³I need to do this. Weıve only got 16 days before this baby is born and I want the baby to have two fathers who are together. This will be our room,² Spike answered, showing Gunn the master bedroom. ³And this will be the nursery, ² pointing at a smaller room which was located next to their bedroom.
Gunn embraced Spike from behind. ³So weıre taking the place?² he whispered in Spikeıs ear and laughed when the vampire nodded enthusiastically.
³Oh yeah. We have to, donıt you see. Our child will play here and here, the crib will be standing here. This door has to be removed though,² Spike explained his vision of the place.
³Okay, letıs tell Angel. I m sure he will take care of the papers. That way we can go shopping with Cordy,² Gunn said, taking Spike by the hand and leading him back to the sewers towards the firm.
*****
When they entered, the firm was empty. No employees walking around. ³Whatıs going on?² Gunn mumbled while he looked around.
³Harmony, what happened?² Spike asked the female vampire who wore a big smile and was about to leave.
³Angel has given everyone three weeks off, with pay of course,² Harmony answered and walked out of the firm.
³Angel?² Spike called out. He stormed into Angelıs office and was about to question his Grandsire on this unexpected decision. However, he halted suddenly at the sight of Lorne kissing Angel deeply.
Angel had heard Spike walking into the office but he couldnıt bring himself to move away or say anything while Lorne kissed him. Lorneıs tongue was doing incredible things to his fangs. His cock hardened just by feeling the tongue sucking on one of his fangs.
He had no intention to interrupt their kiss but Lorne had already pulled back and was saying something he didnıt quite comprehend. Lorneıs kiss had left him too dazed to be able to think about anything else.
³Hello, Spike. Did you like the apartment Angel found for the two of you?² Lorne asked, smiling blindly.
³Yes, we did. And weıre taking it. We were wondering if Angel could deal with the papers and all?² Gunn questioned.
³Angel? Are you okay?² Spike asked softly. His Grandsire was scaring him, the older vampire hadnıt moved from his spot since Lorne stopped kissing him.
Angel heard the waver in Spikeıs voice and snapped out of his daze. He turned, blushed and smiled at his Grandchilde. ³Iım fine. My brain is going south right now, but Iım fine,² Angel joked, smiling when he saw Spike glancing at his crotch with a knowing look. ³So, did you like the place?²
³I loved it. Gunn and I will be taking Cordy and Fred shopping for things for the baby,² Spike happily told Angel, fear leaving his body at Angelıs cheerful mood. ³You donıt need us around right now, do you?²
³Why did you give everyone three weeks off?² Gunn asked seriously.
³Lorak advised me to do so because of Spikeıs extended belly, which will happen almost every day. Lorak found it too dangerous for him to be exposed to so many people,² Angel explained. ³So I gave everyone a vacation on the jobıs credit. Can you believe almost every person was gone within two minutes?²
³These people hadnıt had a day off ever, before you turned the boss here,² Lorne responded before embracing Angel in his arms again. Spike and Gunn left the new couple alone and went in search of the girls for a shopping spree.
³They are going to be exhausted when they get back,² Angel dreamily mentioned.
³That means we can take care of the papers while theyıre gone, sweetheart. The sooner thatıs done, the faster I can get you naked,² Lorne answered and guided Angel to his desk.
Angel sat behind his desk, quickly searching for the papers and making sure his Grandchilde and his lover could move into the place the very next day. The sooner that was done, the sooner he could go back kissing Lorne.
*****
Cordelia and Fred were pleasantly surprised to know about Spikeıs pregnancy and accepted immediately to help the boys with their babyshopping. Cordelia had hugged Spike tightly. They had never been the best of friends, but Spike had changed from a soulless bloody killer into a souled vamp who had saved the world, into an obnoxious ghost and now into a shy pregnant man who was making her friend Gunn smile like a fool. She would do her best to be accepted into their little family. She wanted to be a part of the childıs life.
³Have you got an idea on how the nursery would look like?² Fred questioned.
³I want a light wooden crib and closets, and green blankets, curtains and such,² Spike told the girls happily.
Gunn couldnıt help but laugh, his lover had thought about everything. ³You have surfed many sites havenıt you?² he softly said in the vampireıs ear.
Spike turned around and looked at Gunn. The man was already making him feel safe, even after such a short time. Perhaps their child was the cause of that. Spike kept staring at Gunn while dreaming about their baby and their future life. He didnıt notice he was crying.
³William, sweet heart? Whatıs wrong?² Gunn said, taking the vampireıs face in his hands.
³Just happy. Weıre going to be parents,² Spike mumbled embarrassed. He hadnıt felt the tears until Gunn asked him the question. Thatıs when Spike realised he had been given a nickname.
³Sweetheart? William?² Spike whispered tearfully.
³Yes, William. Thatıs the name of my lover. No, not Sweetheart, but sweet heart,² Gunn replied, making sure his lover heard the two separate words correctly.
Fred and Cordy were enjoying this beautiful moment and broke the silent with their sniffling.
Both men turned their heads to give the women incredulous looks.
³What?² Cordy asked.
³Why are you crying?² Spike asked curiously. Women were so weird! Even after all his unlife experience, he had never been able to understand them fully.
³We arenıt crying,² Fred sniffed.
³Okay, letıs go shopping. The sun has gone down,² Cordy said greedily, after drying her tears. ³Angel!² She screamed. ³Give me your creditcard!² Cordy demanded, knocking insistently on Angelıs office door.
³You already have it, Cordy. Remember last time I ruined your dress?² Angel replied shouting from inside before moaning again.
³Right, forgot that. Nuts, I could have bought myself that cute red dress,² Cordy muttered to herself.
³Cordy, I want to see receipts!² Lorne suddenly demanded.
³Fine! Letıs go, guys,² Cordy instructed annoyed.
*****
³Okay, this is scary,² Gunn said softly to Fred.
Fred and Gunn were walking behind Cordy and Spike, who were happily chatting about several things as if they had done this many times together.
³Yes, it is,² Fred agreed.
³Charles, I like this bed. See, when our baby is older we can turn it into a toddler bed, and later on a teenager bed,² Spike explained, showing his boyfriend the crib.
³Itıs beautiful,² Gunn said, still stunned to hear his first name coming out of the vampireıs mouth. ³Charles?²
³I donıt want to call you Gunn. Itıs too impersonal,² Spike explained looking at Gunn. He smiled broadly when his lover nodded his head and gave Spike a peck on the nose.
³I like it, sweet heart,² Gunn whispered in his boyfriendıs ear. He looked back at Spike and saw something he had never expected to see. William was blushing.
³Awwww,² Fred whispered to herself.
Spike heard this and glared at the women. Cordy and Fred both had their womanly aawwwı faces on.
³William, letıs find some blankets, mattressesletıs buy everything today. We also need paint, brushes, etc.,² Gunn suddenly exclaimed happily.
³Okay,² Spike said and kissed his lover on the lips before dragging Cordy with him to a saleswoman. He wanted to fill in an order form so they would remember everything they wanted to buy. He couldnıt stop his smile from appearing after Charlesı enthusiasm.
*****
³Lorne, what are you doing?² Angel asked, surprised to see Lorne leaving his office. He could see a faint glow before the door was closed.
³I have a surprise for you,² Lorne replied. As soon as the others left the firm, Lorne had invited Angel to go to a popular nightclub. He had told him to shower and change into a more casual attire and meet him in the lobby in half an hour. Meanwhile, he had been busy carrying all the items he had hid in his office into Angelıs office, preparing it for their first real lovemaking.
Lorne approached Angel at the elevators and started undressing him piece by piece. First, he peeled off his red silk shirt to reveal Angelıs cute dark little nipples and firm muscled abdomen. The grey cotton pants were unbuttoned and he instructed Angel to take them off as well as his black shoes. Finally, the vampire stood naked in the hallway.
Lorne guided Angel to his office and opened the door. The vampire stood in the doorway and stared at the surprising scene that Lorne had created in his office. Dozens of candles were lit and their flickering light revealed how much thought and effort Lorne had put into making their first night together special. He didnıt notice Lorne undressing until the demon pressed himself naked against Angelıs back.
Lorne walked the vampire inside his office. He had bought a new mattress, dark red silk sheets and several other items for their first night together. He had chosen the office because it was big and could be filled with a lot of special candles. These candles would burn forever until he said a special word and they didnıt burn vampires.
³Lie on your front,² Lorne instructed Angel.
Angel shivered but did as asked. He knelt on the make shift bed and laid down. Placing his head on his arms, he waited for Lorneıs next move. He jumped a little when Lorne straddled his waist, the demonıs cock lying nestled between his ass cheeks.
Lorne took a bottle of cinnamon oil and walked to the bed. He silently sat on Angelıs waist and smiled when Angel jumped at this movement. He dribbled some oil on Angelıs back and placed the bottle next to the bed. His hands followed the trail of oil and began rubbing it into Angelıs skin.
Angel gasped at the coolness of the oil, but he moaned when Lorne rubbed it in. The oil become warmer by the minute. He became sleepy, but was startled awake when Lorne slapped his ass.
Lorne chuckled when he saw Angelıs eyes drooping. He lifted himself off Angelıs waist and slapped him before sitting down again but this time lower down the legs. He took some more oil and started on the vampireıs lower back to his legs. He skipped Angelıs ass, Lorne had special plans with that part of Angelıs body. He did however kiss each cheek.
Angel tried to move closer to Lorneıs hands. His lover was making him feel special and aroused. He gasped when his ass was kissed twice. The oil was becoming warmer, his skin tingling with pleasure.
³Lorne!² Angel whispered, silently begging him to touch his ass. His hips started moving, trying to get some friction on his cock. But the silk wasnıt helping at all.
³Angel, stop moving!² Lorne instructed and chuckled when he was obeyed immediately. Who would have guessed Angel liked being the submissive one, after all?
Lorne rubbed the oil on Angelıs legs and feet. He heard his lover giggle when he traced his nail along the bottom of Angelıs left foot. He had to remember that. Lorne sat up and instructed Angel to turn on his back.
Angel went to lie on his back and Lorne straddled his waist again. Their cocks were lying next to each other and that gave him some friction when Lorne continued rubbing the oil into Angelıs skin.
Within 10 minutes Angelıs body was tingling from the warm oil expect for his groin and ass. Those two spots had been deliberately skipped.
Lorne manoeuvred Angel in the way Lorne wanted him to; on his back, knees bowed, legs spread and feet flat on the bed. This position showed Lorne Angelıs little virgin pucker. The empathy demon kneeled between Angelıs legs and started kissing the dry skin. He took Angelıs cock head in his mouth and softly sucked it.
Angel was getting nuts; the sucking was so gently that it was preventing the vampireıs pleasure from building higher. He placed his hands on Lorneıs head, trying to make the demon suck harder.
Instead, Lorne stopped his gentle sucking and let go of the cock, kissing it until he reached Angelıs heavy balls. He played with them before taking them in one hand and lifting them away from the soft patch of skin behind the balls. He kissed it and smirked when Angel started moaning louder and louder. His skillful tongue trailed lower to Angelıs pucker. He kissed it gently before pushing the tip of his tongue inside.
Angel screamed when he felt Lorneıs tongue entering him so slowly. He started begging in a language Lorne never heard before. It made Lorne smile and he pushed his tongue further inside.
Angel on his turn grabbed the back of his knees and spread his legs wider, giving Lorne more entrance to his body. He knew he was babbling, but he couldnıt stop it. His lover was doing incredible things to his body.
The empathy demon pulled his tongue out and took some lotion he had placed on the other side of the bed. He slicked his fingers and pushed one finger inside Angel. The vampire arched his back and babbled again. A second finger joined the first and Lorne started stretching Angelıs pucker. Lorne soon entered a third finger and when he thoroughly stretched his loverıs hole; he began to slick his hard cock, to which he had denied attention so far. This was for Angel, he had put his own pleasure on hold until now. Lorne placed his cock at the stretched pucker and pushed his cock head inside. When he breached the tight hole, he heard Angel gasping for air.
It hurt. Angel didnıt think it would hurt this much. He couldnıt stop gasping for breath he didnıt need. He heard Lorne whispering soft soothing words and felt him gently stroking the skin on his belly. He relaxed himself and felt the pain ease. It became just an uncomfortable feeling when Lorne pushed in further. The green demonıs cock was a few inches larger and at least one inch thicker.
Lorne took it slow, he knew he was larger than average and he didnıt want to hurt Angel during their lovemaking. He knew it would hurt at the initial breaching but he would make sure that Angel would enjoy their coupling. He waited for Angel to get accustomed to be penetrated this deep. His balls rested against Angelıs ass cheeks.
Angel relaxed his whole body and began to push back slowly giving Lorne the hint to move. He howled when Lorne pulled out and pushed back inside immediately hitting his little nub inside.
Lorne continued pulling out and pushing back inside Angel again until he felt his pleasure building higher. He took Angelıs cock in his hand and pumped it in time with his thrusting.
They both moved faster and harder until it had them coming at the same time. Angelıs come spurted from his cock onto his chest and over Lorneıs hand. Lorne spilled himself inside Angel, filling the vampire with his come.
Angel could feel Lorne coming but he frowned when the spurting didnıt stop. He kept watching Lorneıs face and waited exhausted for the demon to stop coming.
Lorne finally felt his cock stop erupting before gently pulling out of his lover who was staring at him in shock and exhaustion. He chuckled and leaned forward to kiss Angel on the mouth. The kiss was softly returned and Lorne could see Angel was about to fall asleep. He placed himself on top of Angel and rolled over so Angel was now lying on top of Lorne.
Angel was too tired to object when they changed positions. He placed his head on Lorneıs chest and felt the sheet surrounding them. Lorne was holding him in his arms and he fell asleep peacefully with Lorne following him.
*****
It was midnight when four exhausted people arrived back at the law firm. They stopped a few feet before the entrance of Angelıs office. The floor was covered with clothing, which looked like they were coming from Angel.
Spike took Gunnıs hand and together they slowly made their way to Angelıs office. Gunn embraced Spike when the vampire saw his Grandsire snuggling with Lorne, very deeply asleep.
³Guys, Fred and I are going to our rooms. We will see you tomorrow at your new apartment,² Cordelia whispered, she didnıt want to wake Angel and Lorne.
Gunn and Spike nodded their agreement and walked to Angelıs bedroom. They couldnıt stay at their new home, because it didnıt have a bed yet. And Gunnıs apartment was too far even though it was inside the firm. They were just too tired to walk that far. So they walked quickly to Angelıs bedroom, sleepily undressed themselves and slipped between the sheets.
Spike fell asleep immediately when his head hit the pillow. He didnıt feel his lover taking him into his arms. Gunn followed him in his sleep, holding his lover tightly.