Title: Owning my mistakes 6/7
Author: Spikewil
Feedback: spikewil@w...
Pairing: Spike/Gunn
Rating: NC-17 Summary: Spike gets raped, ends up pregnant and needs to trust the father again. A/N 1: I adopted this plot bunny from Asdomina:
Knock Spike up by somebody who isn't Angel. I know, not really a challenge but there aren't enough out there.

A/N 2: My plan was to write 18 chapters. Each two weeks, done in one chapter. But my muse went ahead of me and changed my plans. So the chapters will be 7 chapters. Sorry.

Beta'd by: Spiked_by_James, Morrolan17 and Pat. Thanks!

***Day 6***

***Angel's office - 10 a.m.***

Angel and Lorne were waiting for Spike and Gunn to arrive. Angel was worried. After Spike's phonecall, he was frightened that there was something wrong with the baby or worse, Spike himself.

"Sweetie, calm down. If something's wrong, he'll tell us when they get here," Lorne said comfortingly. He was also worried, but not as much as his lover.

"Spike, are you okay? What's wrong?" Angel called out as soon as his Grandchilde entered the office. He quickly walked towards the blond vampire and hugged him when he saw that Spike had been crying.

"May we come in?" Giles asked as he and Andrew stood in the doorway.

"Come in...Dad," Spike answered softly.

Giles couldn't stop his eyes from tearing up when he heard the endearment. He leaned against Andrew who just smiled at the older man's behaviour.

Angel was surprised to hear the endearment and frowned. "Why did you call Giles Dad?"

"Because I am," Giles said softly and told the older vampire his story.

During the story Angel sat down, not knowing what to say. "Uhm..."

"You got my baby speechless," Lorne joked, while kissing Angel's neck. The said vampire would have blushed bright red, causing Giles and Andrew to snicker at his expense.

"Dad, would you come with us to our doctor's appointment?" Spike asked shyly.

Gunn was watching his fiance and smiled when the vampire asked another person to come with them to the doctor. He was glad the Sunnydale group accepted their relationship even though he didn't trust the redheaded witch.

Giles nodded and stood straight, ready to accompany his son. His smile widened when he realized Spike had accepted being his son. "I'm a father," he thought with joy in his heart.

Andrew smiled brightly as he watched the joy cross his lover's face as he realized that Spike had accepted him as his father. His smile faded it a little when he realized that it meant that if Giles accepted his proposal he would be Spike's stepfather.

Spike proudly guided his father and lover towards the doctor's office leaving his Grandsire and his father's boyfriend behind.

*****

When the three men sat before Lorak, the other man watched Giles with curiousity. Apparantly Spike had more people that cared about him.

"Could I ask you something?" Giles asked curiously, interrupting the doctor before he could start.

"Yes, of course," Lorak answered and waited patiently for Giles to ask his question.

"How did my son get pregnant?" Giles asked. Silence met his question. The older man looked at his son, only to see him fidgeting with his shirt. Gunn was looking at the floor and the doctor was speechless.

The doctor was silent. He had assumed Spike had already discussed this with his father, but apparantly not. "That is something you have to ask your son. But I would like to continue this appointment, if you don't mind?" Lorak answered calmly.

"Yes, of course," Giles answered worriedly. What happened to his son?

"Spike, if you please lay on the table," Lorak instructed.

As the vampire nervously laid down, Giles and Gunn stood beside him as Lorak chanted and Giles gaped at the sight of his unborn grandchild.

Spike carefully watched his father as the other man stared at the screen. He smiled as he saw his father look closer at the screen. His nervousness dissipated when the older man asked something about his grandchild.

"Is that my grandchild?" Giles whispered as he watched the little heart pounding fast.

"Yes, that's your grandchild," Lorak answered, showing the Watcher the head, hands and feet.

"How old is he?" Giles asked further.

"The baby is 27 weeks," Lorak answered. "Spike, that means this pregnancy is going much faster than we anticipated. So be prepared, this baby is going to come when you least expect it," Lorak warned the vampire.

The vampire nodded and continued to watch his father's reaction to the baby. He knew he had to explain to Giles how he got pregnant, but he didn't want to do it here or without Angel. He wasn't sure what his father would do to Gunn.

"You can get dressed now, Spike," Lorak instructed and walked back to his desk and wrote the information down in Spike's file.

"Have you started the breathing excersises yet?" Lorak asked when the vampire was once again seated in front of him.

"I was going to start this morning with Dawn. I want her to be with me when our baby comes," Spike answered softly. He hadn't discussed this part with Gunn yet and didn't know how his lover would react.

"Will Gunn and your father be there too?" Lorak asked formally.

"Yes, and Andrew," Spike said, smiling when Gunn kissed him deeply and his father squeezed his hand.

"Spike, Gunn, I have more information about your child," Lorak stated. After receiving a vision with information about Spike's child from the Oracles, he prepared himself for the parents' questions.

"About if the baby's human or not?" Gunn asked immediately.

"Yes, about that," Lorak answered.

Giles couldn't believe what he was hearing. The Ancient was the reason his son was pregnant. He had read about the Ancient, a kind of spirit that took over a human body and raped the victim in order to reproduce. That meant his son-in-law had raped and impregnated his son. He wasn't aware of the anger that colored his face as the realization that his child had been violated hit him square on until Lorak placed his hand on his arm.

Spike sensed his father becoming upset and guided Gunn quickly out of Giles' reach.

"The Ancient hurt my boy?" Giles hissed angrily.

"Yes, but it has been defeated now. It can't hurt Spike or the baby anymore," Lorak said, calming the older man with his voice. He had forgotten that Giles didn't know the whole story behind Spike's pregnancy.

Giles nodded and apologized to Spike and Gunn for his behaviour. That made Spike hug his father tightly and he smiled softly when he felt himself being hugged in return.

"Very well, I will see you tomorrow," Lorak said before closing the file and guiding the family through the door.

*****

"Xander, we have to watch Willow carefully. She's up to something," Buffy warned Xander as they stood outside the law firm.

"Did she do or say something?" Xander asked worriedly. He had accepted that his Willow was dead, the girl that they were looking at was just a shell with uncontrolled magic. The girl would never be the same and the addiction was still controlling Willow's body.

"She was using magic to eavesdrop on Spike's appointment with his doctor," Buffy replied. "She stopped when she saw me coming."

"Why did you leave her alone? She's going to do something stupid now, because she she knows she can't do anything when we are all there," Xander asked in a panic.

Both Buffy and Xander ran towards Angel. But as they arrived at Angel's office, they saw Dawn on the couch crying. Gunn was holding Spike and they both were crying. Giles silently cried as he held Andrew tightly.

"What's going on? Where's Willow?" Buffy asked worriedly.

"Willow is dead!" Lorne announced angrily. "She attacked Spike and his baby."

"She tried to take away the baby's power by draining Spike's energy," Angel explained, while hugging Lorne tighter. "Where is she?" Buffy asked as she couldn't find the redheaded girl.

"She's dead. I used her own magic against her and it burned her from the inside out," Wesley said, while holding a small, silver box.

"She's ashes?" Buffy asked stunned.

"Yes, she is," Wesley replied and gave the box to Xander.

Xander took the box and stared at it sadly before remembering who Willow had attacked. "Are Spike and the baby okay?" Xander asked worriedly.

Everybody looked up at Xander's question. They had never heard the young man's voice quiver with concern for Spike. "Xander?" Spike asked softly after hearing the question.

"Yeah?" Xander whispered as he noticed that everyone was staring at him.

"I thought you hated me?" Spike asked curiously.

"Never hated you. Was jealous of you. You got all the girls, all the friends. You had power, strength and love, I have nothing," Xander stated softly before running out of the room.

"What just happened?" Dawn asked after watching the strange scene unfold.

"From the moment Willow, Xander and I became friends she always backed him up. But when she got more power, she kept telling him that he didn't have any powers or strength, he shouldn't be part of our group," Buffy softly explained.

"But I thought they were friends since childhood and even when Willow got Tara," Angel inquired.

"They did. But between cheating on Oz with Xander and getting too much power, she didn't see reality anymore. It gotten worse when Tara died, Xander saved the world by telling her that he loved her. After that she wasn't Xander's friend any longer," Buffy explained. "Spike, please stay here. I'll go find him," she said when she saw the vampire walking towards the door.

*****

Xander stopped running and couldn't believe he let himself go. It hurt to know that Willow was now really dead or in this case ashes. He had tried to see her as a friend like they used too, but Willow was too angry to do that. Willow had died when he saved the world and his best bud.

"Hey," Buffy whispered when she found him sitting in the hallway not far from Angel's office.

"Hey," Xander whispered back.

Buffy looked at her friend and felt stirrings in her stomach. She was surprised as she realized that she felt more than just friendship for him. Perhaps what had happened to Willow changed her feelings.

Xander felt Buffy staring at him and couldn't help but let his feelings be in control. His love for Buffy flared up again and he was startled when the young woman kissed him soflty.

"What?" Xander questioned stunned.

"I...I don't know...I'm sorry," Buffy stuttered. "Hmphf," she was apologizing to her friend when Xander kissed her back.

"We need to talk," Xander said after pulling back, grinning when Buffy followed his mouth.

"I know. Do you want to go back or do you want go out, get something to drink?" Buffy asked smiling.

"I didn't know Slayers could still blush?" Xander whispered and smiled as the blush deepened.

"Shut up! Let's go," Buffy exclaimed and stood up.

*****

The others watched the two young people walk away.

"This is really something for Buffy to pull love out of Xander when someone dear dies," Dawn remarked heartfelt.

***Day 7***

Giles and Angel watched with pride as Spike was preparing to get married. When the doctor told them yesterday that the baby was coming sooner than anticipated Spike and Gunn decided they should get married right away.

Spike took out the suit he had bought for the wedding and began getting ready. He felt the stares from his father and Grandsire and smiled. They had become very protective of him and his baby.

Angel had made the decision that Giles should give Spike away. After all, he was Spike's father. He did not want Spike to feel guilty about not having Angel give him away.

*****

Gunn was fidgeting with his tie as he looked at himself in the mirror. He couldn't believe he was going to marry his love.

"Let me do that," Fred said calmly as she noticed that her friend was too nervous to tie a proper knot.

"Thanks, Fred," Gunn said, smiling at the young woman.

*****

Fred, Wesley, Cordelia, Lorak and Lorne stood on the right side of the room, waiting for Spike to arrive.

Dawn, Xander, Buffy, Andrew and Giles stood on the left side of the small room.

Gunn stood on the right side of the aisle, waiting for Spike to walk towards him. His eyes shone with tears as he watched Spike nervously picking at a seam on his silver suit. He waited patiently for Spike to walk next to him before speaking.

"Sweet heart, you look absolutely gorgeous," Gunn said, eying his soon-to-be husband's body.

Spike blushed at the words, stroked his pregnant belly and giggled when the baby kicked his hand.

"You look gorgeous too," Spike replied, taking Gunn's hand in his own and placing it on his belly. The baby kicked, and his parents both smiled broadly.

Giles watched the scene and couldn't be happier at what he was witnessing. Angel had surprised him by giving him the honored duty of giving away his son. He knew Angel would still be Spike's witness, so with great joy and pride he was ready to give his son away in matrimony.

Andrew watched his lover carefully and took his hand into his own and squeezed. The young man couldn't help himself and kissed Giles deeply before letting him go.

Spike watched his father be kissed, leaving the older man behind with a silly little smile.

"We are here together to bind these two men in matrimony. Who will give away the bride...uhm...the groom," the Priest stuttered clumsily.

Spike looked offended that he was the designated wife, but giggled as he watched the priest stutter on his own words.

"I will!" Giles said firm and proud.

Spike looked at his father in surprise before looking at Angel. He saw in their eyes that they had done this together. His heart swelled with pride as he realized that Angel and Giles had worked through their differences for him.

Every girl in the room was crying at the beautiful sight the two men made. Gunn in an ivory suit, Spike in a silver suit with a gray band around his pregnant belly. Every time the baby's parents had to say I do, you could see the rippling go through the belly.

As Gunn was kissing his husband for the first time, the vampire cried out in pain. He pulled back and saw the look of pain on Spike's face as his hands clutched at his belly.

Andrew saw a wet spot forming on Spike's trousers. "His water broke," he said calmly.

Lorak immediately stood up and together with Gunn he guided the vampire to the doctor's office where everything was already prepared. The doctor had anticipated that the baby would come earlier than expected.

Spike groaned from the pain rippling through his abdomen.

"I want Dawn, Gunn, Andrew and Giles in the room with Spike, the rest of you wait here," Lorak ordered as he guided the five people into the room.

Spike was breathing through his nose. He had only one breathing lesson. "How am I supposed to remember what to do?" he thought hysterically He focused on Dawn's face while Gunn undressed him, letting him keep his shirt on.

Giles was nervous; he didn't know what to do. They were supposed to discuss this first, have a plan with everyone's role clearly defined, but that wasn't going to happen now. He sat next to his son and took a shivering hand in his own while his lover did the same on the other side.

Gunn was placed behind Spike as the vampire sat on the birthing chair. The hunter supported Spike by pressing his chest and stomach against Spike's back.

"Spike, breathe. Don't push!" Lorak instructed calmly.

Dawn was watching the scene unfold in front of her; she realized that Spike was focusing on her mouth. She remembered the breathing exercises the teacher had taught her and began breathing as she had been taught. When she saw Spike taking her lead and copying her, she was filled with pride as she was now helping Spike bring his child into the world.

Spike squirmed on the chair, as the contractions were getting progressively stronger and longer. "This hurts," he cried out when a sharp contraction ran through his belly.

"Focus on your breathing, Spike. You are fully dilated, on the next contraction I want you to breathe and start pushing. Ok?" Lorak instructed while examining Spike.

Spike pushed as hard as he could. He felt his baby slip towards his entrance. He heard twin groans but couldn't place it as he continued pushing.

"Stop!" Lorak ordered, when the vampire didn't stop pushing. "Distract him from pushing."

"Giles, I love you very much. You make me cry and laugh, you make my heart burst from the love I feel for you," Andrew said, looking at Giles. He saw from the corners of his eyes that Spike had stopped pushing and was watching his father with interest.

Giles couldn't believe what he was hearing. Andrew was professing his love for him while his son was in labor. Was he nuts? He needed to concentrate on his son right now.

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?" Andrew asked curiously.

Lorak smiled. He hadn't expected that kind of distraction but it was working. Both Spike and Giles were looking at Andrew, although the vampire kept looking back and forth between his father and his soon-to-be stepfather.

Giles was gaping at his lover. He hadn't seen that question coming. But he smiled and cried when he answered. "Yes, I want to marry you. I love you."

Spike smiled as well until another contraction ripped through his body. "I need to push."

"Go ahead and push as hard as you can, but stop when I tell you," Lorak instructed sharply.

The vampire didn't answer but pushed as hard as he could. He felt the baby's head push through the outer rim of his anus. He screamed out from pain as the head popped out. He breathed heavily as the doctor made sure everything was all right before pushing again. With the next push he howled out with pain as he felt the shoulders slip from his body.

Dawn felt faint as she watched the baby slip from Spike's body. It was unnatural for her to see something like that and she couldn't stop the darkness from surrounding her.

Lorak caught the baby in his hands and gently placed the baby on Spike's chest wrapped in a warm blanket. Gunn smiled at the sight of his husband and their child.

"Is it a boy or a girl?" Giles asked curiously. He couldn't see and the doctor hadn't said anything. "I got a baby," Spike whispered stunned as he looked at the scrunched up little face.

"Yes, we know that. But is it a she or a he?" Giles laughed at hearing Spike's words.

Lorak waited until the umbilical cord had finished pulsating and asked Gunn if he wanted to cut the cord. Gunn who had been watching his baby couldn't reach it. In order to cut the cord Gunn would have to let go of Spike and his child and he was loath to do that. "Let my father-in-law cut it."

Giles was surprised at hearing this, but happily accepted the scissors and cut the cord. The moment the cord was cut the baby tested his lungs.

"He got Spike's lungs," Gunn dryly commented.

"It's a he?" Andrew asked curiously.

Lorak took the baby from Spike's chest and examined the child before showing the child to her parents. "You got a little girl."

"We have a daughter, William," Gunn whispered in Spike's ear as they embraced their daughter again.

Lorak cleaned the vampire after the placenta was delivered. He took the little girl away from the parents and wrapped her in a pink blanket and placed her in Giles' arms.

"Gunn, gently lift Spike up and place him on the bed in the corner," the doctor instructed calmly. Everything went all right. The mother was fine as well as the baby girl.

"What's her name?" Lorak asked curiously.

"Rebecca Lily Gunn, after my mother," Spike answered and saw Giles looking at him with tears in his eyes, while Gunn's eyes shone when he heard their child was taking his last name.

"Thank you," Giles answered and looked at his granddaughter with pride. He walked towards the door and stood in the doorway as Andrew had opened it for him.

*****

Lorne embraced Angel and he hugged his lover tightly. Angel was hearing soft moaning; loud screaming and howling from Spike and it made him feel scared. He was praying that his Grandchilde would be all right.

Buffy was in Xander's arms and both hoped Spike would be okay. They heard the screaming as well and couldn't help feeling useless. Buffy was also curious to know how Dawn was dealing with what was going on inside the room. Cordelia and Fred were in Wesley's embrace. Both women were pressed against his sides, faces against his neck. The moment Wesley blushed, the rest of the people knew they were looking at a threesome.

They all stood closer to the door as it opened, Giles had a small pink bundle in his arms. "I'd like you to meet my granddaughter Rebecca Lily Gunn."

The entire crew oohed and awed over the baby while Gunn took care of his husband. He moved a bit when Giles returned with his daughter and placed the girl on Spike's chest near his right nipple. They watched with fascination how the girl latched on the nipple and began drinking.

***One month later***

The L.A. gang now, including Giles and Andrew were waving goodbye to their friends. Xander, Dawn and Buffy were returning to Rome after promising to call as often as possible.

Spike and Gunn were in the middle of their apartment enjoying their daughter's attention, while Lorne and Angel were making out on the couch.

Giles and Andrew were snuggled in one of the larger chairs in the corner. The older man was touching the younger man in places he wasn't supposed to while in a public.

Wesley and Cordelia were standing near the doorway discussing their wedding with Fred. While Fred watched their family interact and couldn't help but smile. This is how it was supposed to be, a loving family.