Title: Shards of Broken. . . Author: Alex Quinn Fandom: X-Men Pairing: Scott/Logan Summary: While trying to help a woman Scott, and Logan find something out about each other. Archive: Yes to Mpreg, others ask first. Rating: NC-17 Parts: Not sure Status: WIP Series/Sequel: None as of yet. Website: None Disclaimer: The only character I own is Winter. The boys belong to the creators of X-Men. Authors notes & Warnings: This story is about a desease called, "Self cutting." One I unfortunately know too much about. To suffer from it is a real bad thing. So don't think lightly about it. Also if you know anyone that does suffer from it please gently help them into getting help. DO NOT try to force them. You'll only push them away. They may lock themselves further inside themselves.
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After Logan left him Scott slowly walked around the mansion to end up in the gardens. He moved over to the fountain and just sat there staring into the cool blue water to let out a sigh.
"Need to talk?" Ro asked softly moving over.
"I don't know what I need Ro, that's my problem."
"Is something bothering you?"
"Yes. . . two things really."
"Oh, what are they?" She asked to sit a little away from.
"Logan found Winter in her room. . . she had cut herself. . . she had also been drinking."
"Oh dear. . . how bad?"
"Not that bad really. . . it's just that she had done it that bothers me. I can't imagine what pain she must be in to do that to herself."
"Once the Professor finds out the cause he will help her deal with it. Is that what's troubling you the most?"
"Yes."
"What is the other one?"
"I'm confused about how I feel for someone."
"Confused how?" she asked having a good idea who he was thinking about, but remained silent.
"I just don't know what I feel for this person anymore. . ."
"What does your heart tell you?"
"That I love him. . . I uh. . ." Scott said and froze.
Ro smiled and moved closer to reach out and gently lifted his head by his chin to look into his glasses letting him go.
"I see nothing wrong with that Scott. Love in it's many forms is beautiful."
"You know?" Scott asked softly.
"I've had my suspicions for a while now. Well with the way you two have been acting around each other. . . I also believe that he thinks that he is not the right person for you. That and you will be hurt if you are with him."
"You mean like Rogue?"
"Yes, but he is wrong. Kurt and I both truly believe that."
"Ah, I should've known," Scott said with a smile looking back at the water.
"Do you love him Scott?"
"Yes. . . I wasn't sure before, but I am now. . . I'm sure he loves me, but like you and Kurt believe he thinks I'll get hurt."
"He's wrong. The difference is that you'll be in his arms as you both fall asleep."
"Not walking in on him as he's having a nightmare."
"Yes exactly."
Scott let out a deep sigh, but this time he was thinking. Thinking of how to convince Logan that it was safe to let him share his bed.
"Whatever you do take it slowly Scott."
"I know. Don't worry."
"I'll try not to. Well good night," she said to leave him alone.
He got up and went to his room and showered then changed into something nice. He then left to head back to the gardens to the spot he knew Logan would go when he wanted to think and sure enough he was there. Logan picked up on him as he entered the gardens and turned to stare at him.
'Wow not bad,' he thought then looked off again.
"Logan?" Scott asked moving close to stop.
"What do ya want Slim?"
"To talk."
"To talk huh?"
"Yes. Just to talk," Scott said taking a few slow steps closer. "Ok, what do ya want to talk about?" Logan asked shifting on the branch he was on.
"Well, what you had said earlier had me thinking," Scott said moving to stand next to the tree then sat down on the grass.
"And what had I said?"
"You said that she wasn't the only one to do that."
Logan frowned.
"Kindly explain what ya mean by that?"
Scott took a deep breath and let out a sigh before answering, and Logan could tell it was something that was bothering him a lot.
"You said that she wasn't the only one to cut herself. . . why did you say that?"
It was then that Logan knew why he was so upset in the kitchen earlier and let out a sigh of his own to drop down to the ground next to him.
He then knelt next to him pulling him close for a hug again to have him turn and wrap his arms around him tightly hugging him back.
"Seein that really bothered you didn't it?" Logan asked softly.
"Yes," Scott said and began to shake.
Logan let out another sigh this time he buried his face in the crook of Scott's neck and breathed in deeply.
"Logan?"
"Hmm?"
"I've got to know. . . do you. . . do you cut yourself?"
"No. . . knew someone that did a long while ago."
Scott let out a deep sigh sounding very relieved.
"Um, Logan?"
"Hmm?" Logan asked with a smile.
"You gonna let me go?"
"That all depends."
"On?"
"Do you want me to?"
"No."
"Hmm, then what do ya want?"
"You to kiss me, and tell me that you love me," Scott said holding his breath.
Logan could tell he had used what courage he could muster just to say that and was worried he had pushed too soon.
"On one condition," he aid pulling back only far enough to look into Scott's glasses.
"And that. . . is?"
"That you kiss me and tell me that you love me too."
"Yes," Scott said to meet him in a deep passionate kiss.
"I love ya Slim," Logan said shifting to hold him close again.
"I love you Logan," Scott said softly.
They just held each other for a few silent moments.
"Now what do we do?"
"Take a chance," Logan said to let him go and stood to look down at him.
"With what?"
"You sleepin with me tonight. . . that's if you want to?"
"I do," Scott said and let him help him up.
Logan then led him to his room and inside.
"You don't have to be afraid Logan. You won't hurt me. I trust you," Scott said slowly removing his shirt as he moved close to him.
Logan smiled to pull Scott close for a kiss helping to slowly strip them.
"Make love to me?" Scott asked breaking the kiss to hold Logan close once naked.
"I'd love to. . . then you can make love to me later."
". . . Ok," Scott said with a grin.
They made love to curl together under the covers.
Half way through the night Logan tensed dreaming. Scott woke and shifted to gently rub his back. Logan took a slow deep breath and he calmed down letting out a sigh then held him close.
The next morning Logan woke to the feeling of warm hands caressing his back.
"Good morning," Scott said softly to kiss him tenderly.
"Hmm, mornin," Logan moaned to kiss him back pulling him close.
"Well?"
"No problems then?"
"Not really."
"Scott?"
"I woke once to help you calm down from one dream."
"Just one?"
"Mmm, Hmm."
"Oh."
"You took a deep breath so I think my scent helped calm you down as well as my rubbing your back."
"True."
"So how about my turn?" Scott asked with a grin moving so he was on top.
"You sure babe?" Logan asked having thought that he had changed his mind.
"Hmm, very," Scott said to lean down for a deep passionate kiss.
Logan moaned spreading his legs to let Scott settle between them to groan as Scott rocked his hips rubbing their groins together making them both hard.
Scott then grabbed the lube and slowly worked his way down Logan's body to distract his mind while he quickly stretched him. He then moved back up and while he kissed him thrusting his tongue in to twine with his he guided his way into him only to stop once all the way in.
"Hmm, oh Scott!" Logan moaned caressing his shoulders.
"Feel good?" Scott asked as he slowly thrust into him.
"Gods yes!"
Scott then went a little faster only getting a louder moan from Logan to go a little harder making him groan.
"Oh gods yes! Oh Scott harder, faster!" Logan groaned arching his back as he reached down to grab Scott's ass with both hands.
"Oh Logan! Oh yes!" Scott moaned and gave in to go fast and hard.
"Oh gods. . . SCOTT!" Logan moaned to howl as he felt Scott reach between them and wrapped his fingers around his cock to force him over the edge.
"Oh gods LOGAN!" Scott moaned to come hard.
Both were spent and Scott just lay there on top of Logan then gently pulled out to lay next to him.
"Wow, that felt amazing babe," Logan said with a grin rolling on his side to look at him.
"Really?" Scott asked with a grin of his own looking at him.
"Yep."
"Hmm, so how about a shower?"
"Sounds good to me," Logan said to get up and pulled Scott with him.
They showered to get out and once dry they got dressed to head down for breakfast.
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